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[10 Jan 2009|06:55pm] |
As an eighth grade student finding one's self-esteem is extremely important. Knowing and caring about what others think of you is also important. These are two important factors behind an eighth grade English assignment I found in my box of memories tonight.
The assignment was to say one nice thing about a classmate even if you didn't really know that person well. Here's a sampling of what was said about me in eighth grade.
"You're very intelligent, funny and sweet. You're also willing to listen and always willing to share."
"You're an awesome cheerleader."
"Lindsey is really smart and she gets good grades."
"You're an awesome thinker, fun to be around and a really sweet person."
"Lindsey, you are very sweet and you always will be."
"Lindsey, you're very nice when you let me borrow writing utensils."
"You're very nice and you dress well."
"You're outgoing and an outspoken person."
"You're a very nice person and you have a good sense of humor. You also have good handwriting."
"Lindsey, you're helpful to others when they need it."
I found these affirmations tonight in search for something, I don't know what. Having started reading "Revolution from Within: A book of Self-Esteem" by Gloria Steinem for my women's studies class, I thought it would better help me understand the learning if I went back nearly ten years to see what other people thought of me and how these thoughts helped shape my self-esteem.
I don't have the answers to those questions yet but I do know that I struggled with self-esteem during that time, like all 13 year olds and I thought it'd be interesting to delve into the past to see who I am now.
Hell, I'm almost a college graduate and I still don't know who I am. Is there something wrong with that picture?
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[15 Nov 2008|11:21pm] |
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laziness is unacceptable. why did i allow myself to be enticed but such a horrible habit? it's catching up to me. now it's time to kick some hard core ass.
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| there was a boy... |
[26 Aug 2008|03:24pm] |
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A year ago today I met this guy. This guy was everything I didn't expect. He was exactly what I wasn't looking for. Yet, he suit me. And made me happy for four months. (Four months isn't long by any standards but it was longer than I'd ever been pursued before.)
Then almost nine months ago he became the biggest asshole I'd ever met, without even trying.
And today I'm reminded of the pain he caused me and why I couldn't get closure with him.
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| new york state of mind... |
[28 Jan 2008|12:10am] |
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I'm so craving another tattoo right now. I wanted to get something that represented New York City because I'm so obsessed with NYC. So at first I was thinking about getting a small skyline outline. Something small and simple but now after attending a party last night and having a discussion about tattoos, I've decided to get a very small apple. I want it to be smaller than my hear tattoo and I'm not even sure where I'm going to put it yet but I think the apple will be better than a skyline. It represents the Big Apple without being obvious about it.
Horray! I'm excited I don't know when I'm going to get it but I'm craving it.
Btw, I'm going back to New York in a month!
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| caring is creepy |
[06 Jan 2008|06:57pm] |
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i know what i want. how come you don't?
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| It's been a great year! |
[27 Dec 2007|10:08pm] |
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With 2007 coming to an end and possibly being the best year of my life so far, I think it's time to take a look back.
Started the second half of my sophomore year of college in January. I only had one journalism class but it was good because I was able to connect with a lot of people that worked at the Oakland Post. I had one of my biggest stories published in the beginning of January about PRODUCT (Red). I also began saving $25 a week towards my dream vacation to New York City.
Still no Valentine this February but I was able to attend a journalism conference at Michigan State University near the end of the month about news design and it's where I definitely connected with the people who work at the paper and the advisor.
After spring break, I really got noticed around the Post. I got my first big cover story in March. It was about cities to move to after graduation and I wrote about New York City. The cover design was insane and I was really motivated to get ahead in my career.
I almost forgot to mention that I spent the best $100 ever on the Justin Timberlake concert that I attended with Brenna in March. How could I possibly forget it? It was the best concert I've ever been to.
I booked my flight and hotel to New York City at the beginning of April and I finished my sophomore year with my best semester to date. I received two 4.0's and two 3.8's that semester, raising my GPA to a 3.49.
I was stuck in a sling for two weeks in the beginning of May, due to a shoulder injury at ACO. It was an injury that would affect me for the rest of the year. But we started the Spring and Summer issues of the Oakland Post so my sole focus was working on getting a position on staff.
On Memorial Day, I found out that I was going to be the temporary Local section editor for the Post during our June, July and August issues. I was speechless because I was able to go from a contributing reporter to a section editor in a matter of months.
I spent the rest of the summer catching the summer's biggest blockbusters at the theater and anticipated my dream vacation to New York City, which was planned for the beginning of August.
I got into a huge fight with one of my good friends which ultimately led to the friendship falling apart and us not talking for the rest of the year. It was okay with me though because we grew apart and barely knew who each other was anymore.
I met a few cool new people this summer and became very close to the people I worked with at ACO, namely Andrea.
It can be stated that the week of August 3-9 have truly been the best seven days of my life. On August 3, Andrea and I drove to the Summit Mall in Waterford to meet Sarah Jessica Parker at Steve & Barry's. After three hours of waiting in the blistering heat, Andrea and I got to meet SJP and get her autograph. We also had thirty second conversation with her. On August 5, Brenna and I were on our way to Metro Detroit Airport to catch our flight to LaGuardia. And I can't even describe the way I felt as soon as we landed and I saw that skyline. I think I skipped a breathe and my jaw dropped. I was like a little kid in a candy store. I spent the next five days in awe of what can only be described as the best place on the entire earth; taking in every sight, every scent, every noise, and the feeling of the hot city summer air against my sweaty skin. If I described everything I felt in New York City in detail, well lets just say it'd be a short novel.
When I arrived home from the city, I received news from my editor that I was going to be the You (Features) Editor for the Post during the Fall semester. I was excited to spend so much time with great people. It definitely beat working at ACO. And by that time, all my old friends at ACO had quit, anyway.
The summer ended in the best way possible. I reconnected with my old friend Amanda and we celebrated by going out to Emerald. I then met a very attractive and great guy, who we'll call 955 guy. We went on a few dates and well something good happened on Labor Day weekend. :-)
We kicked ass at the Post on our first Welcome Back issue and the editor-in-chief already mentioned training me for the Editor-in-chief position for my senior year. They've continued joking about me being the future editor the entire semester. I also wrote another cover story about Greek life on campus. I also met another cute guy, we'll call him Navy boy
I also started attending physical therapy for my shoulder injury that emerged again.
By my birthday in October, I realized that 2007 could be the best year of my life. My professional life, friendships and other things were going great. I celebrated my 20th birthday with my closest friends. I continued to see 955 guy, too. I also took another trip to Washington D.C. for a Journalism conference. It was an amazing experience and made me anticipate possibly becoming editor-in-chief one day.
I kept busy throughout November and December. Thanksgiving was different this year because we didn't go to my Aunt Lori's house and Christmas was great, too. I got everything I asked for except for the sinus infection that I caught this past week. And things are still heated up between myself and 955 guy. I also heard from a guy I haven't heard from in awhile. He was asking to strike up a FWB relationship. And well he's still lingering on that one. For now, I'm into 955 guy. We will have to see how that goes in 2008.
Things to look forward to in '08
*Another trip to NYC for a journalism conference
*Getting an internship
*Possibly taking over as Editor-in-Chief at the Post
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[15 Dec 2007|08:30pm] |
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I hate getting myself into predicaments I can't get out of without my feelings getting hurt.
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| seriously. |
[17 Nov 2007|10:34pm] |
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i need a new job.
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| i swear sometimes i'm so emo |
[28 Oct 2007|09:40pm] |
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Do you ever get so overwhelmed with emotions that your eyes just start pouring tears and you don't know why?
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| i deserve... |
[21 Oct 2007|09:27pm] |
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...so much better than what I get.
and I think men [for the most part] are fucking assholes.
for now.
but my mind always changes.
but I still deserve so much more than what I get.
I shouldn't settle for anything less than I deserve. EVER.
emotions make me sick sometimes.
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| lovestoned. |
[29 Aug 2007|10:24pm] |
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so i met this really cute guy and we went on a sweet date last night.
we'll see where it goes. i'm trying not to make a big deal about it.
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| moving on up |
[13 Aug 2007|09:43pm] |
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So good news. I am offically the new "You" editor at the Oakland Post. ("You" is the features section)
And for those of you who don't know, I just got back from New York City. The most amazing city ever. I will most definitely be moving there as soon as I graduate.
Anyways back to the Post. It's great, we have a full 24 member staff that I can't wait to spend my time with and I get my own little desk that I get to decorate and such. I'm excited! Our photo editor and I are the only juniors on staff so as soon as everyone graduates next year, it's just going to be me and him. Our editor in cheif joked today that she was going to start training me as the editor in cheif for when she leaves.
We are in the middle of production week so I better get ready for a long day tomorrow because we didn't get much accomplished today. I'm looking forward to the school year now.
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| best day ever. |
[03 Aug 2007|09:30pm] |
Check out the cut. I met Sarah Jessica Parker today. Best Day Ever. Followed by the New York City trip in less than 48 hours!!!
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| city love. |
[02 Jul 2007|09:42pm] |
i love the new york post's fashion blog. it is so fetch. lmao (yes, i just used "fetch") it brings me such joy. as does working at the oakland post. i think i'm gonna have to write a story about a shooting for my section next week. eek! it would be my first real 'news' story and its big..... gulp!
anyways. 35 days 'til my departure. <3 <3
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| love song for no one. |
[17 Jun 2007|12:51am] |
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Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
-John Mayer said it best.
I hate nights like these
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[14 Jun 2007|11:31pm] |
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i hate when people tell you things that they say they mean but then they never act on it. maybe i'm holding onto the past too much.
"maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. maybe you need to let go of who you were to become who you will be." - the wise and well written character, carrie bradshaw
i just cried a little.
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| oh is it love? |
[05 Jun 2007|12:04am] |
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new news.
RE: last entry.
I'm officially the Local Editor of The Oakland Post for the rest of the summer. 3 issues. Exciting and big news in my world because I've jumped from being a Contributing Reporter all year to becoming a section editor. It's exciting but is it sad that I still want to write?!? My first staff meeting is tomorrow and I get to design two pages next week. ♥ ♥
k, g'dnight.
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| hey there deliah whats it like in new york city? |
[31 May 2007|05:50pm] |
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Not a lot to report but I decided I might as well update anyways. I've been enjoying my time off from school a lot. I've almost finished two books already, given they are novels about socialites in New York City, they've still been entertaining to me. My plan to focus on working for the Oakland Post has proved to be successful. For the last issue I wrote four fun articles, while I was in a sling. (I sprained my shoulder last month, so I had to type up my stories while I was wearing a sling and recovering from the sprain...I'm much better now) Anyways back to the Oakland Post info...we had a meeting on Memorial Day that got messed up but I found out that I will be the temporary Local section editor for the next issue. Now, this is something that I'm sooo excited and honored to do. I told the editor-in-chief before the end of the semester that I'd eventually want to be a section editor and since a few of the section editors are on vacation/getting married this summer they are unable to be there during the summer months to produce and run their sections. So the E-in-C told me that she needed me to design the Local page this issue. I feel so lucky to have the opportunity to train for this position because it's something I'm especially interested in and even though it's not going to be my position on staff next year...the experience will still be great.
Other noteworthy news in my life is that I'm leaving for New York City in about two months! So I've got almost everything saved up that I need and I might just even have an extra few hundred dollars to take with me! I still have to plan our itinerary but I still can't wait to get there...I've been waiting my whole life to go there so it should be great.
Besides the great day off I had today, nothing else is worth noting.
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